More from the Quarter-Life Crisis front.

My fraternity brother is gettting married. This is a new page...now people who are actual friends, people I used to do keg stands with, play wingman for...are getting married. To me, that is absolute craziness. In a recent dinner conversation with my friend Ann, we talked about always getting stuck in the proverbial singles group. A lot of our friends are in relationships...long-term, short-term, hook-ups, and here we are, married to our jobs and extracurricular activities.

I'm not complaining but sometimes it becomes sad that when I'm ready to go out for a debaucherous night with the fellas, and they're staying in with the wifey or doing up a "couples only" night. Let's not forget the "couples vacations". Stop with that already...can we just grab a beer on a Tuesday night after work, is that so hard?

I seem to end up talking about where I thought I'd be in this stage in life with just about everyone I break bread with. I'm not obsessed with finding the "one". I don't live my life like a bad reality dating show, although I should...JD the next Bachelor? Stop. On paper, my life is pretty damn good and I couldn't do anything to mess that up. Got a good job, benefits, still able to go on crazy trips and drink 'til all hours of the night. And I look and feel better than ever. Then I start to compare myself to the others...

This is where the insecurities come into play. I'm not alone in this...but when I hear about my peers accomplishing huge things or making life-altering decisions...I always feel like I'm wasting my 20s away. On the other hand, I have friends who are the free spirits, doing whatever their inebriated little hearts take them; and I think...shit, I'm not doing enough to enjoy my damn self! All of these thoughts with the realization that I'll be entering the mid-20s. I'm trippin'!

I know what I'm doing but I don't. That's the best way I can sum all the stuff going through my head up. I could be making more money. I could be handling my stuff better. I could lighten up and just take it day by day...

I even feel kinda guilty about talking about this all the time. It's all me me me, blah blah blah. You can never shut me up once I start talking about the subject I know best...me.